Saturday, November 26, 2005

Post STPM Damage Report

well..its over....

it was over a few days ago actually. 4 days to be exact. something kept me from blogging all these days - laziness n a general lack of disposition to do anything except playing computer games. dunno, i hated studying for stpm but once its all over, it feels like i've lost 'direction' sumhow...without a goal around which all my activities are ultimately planned, i duno how to fill my days.

a few weeks back when a bunch of ppl finished their sch exams, they were putting up msn nicknames reflecting their boredom. well, for me its not like that. in my case its not a matter of having nothing to do, but wanting to do so many stuff that i dunno where to start. in fact, i cant even REMEMBER wat i want to do (luckily i wrote a very long list during the course of the year...will be referring to it as soon as i...haih, nevermind). so instead of going out to do something 'productive', i've been filling my days with computer games. n for sum reason time seems 2 b flowing real fast these days...heck, 4 days gone n not even a movie watched?

damn, relly hv 2 pull myself together to stop wasting the holidays liddat....

anyway, on stpm...i'm afraid i've already fell short of my goal of obtaining 5A's...it appears i celebrated my marks for chemistry 1 too early. the sadists at MPM apparently targetted chemistry as the 'killer' subject this year because paper 2 came out even harder than paper 1, if that was at all possible. without going into details, i can safely say that 20 marks hv gone down the drain. n this juz from an initial assessment...there must be half a dozen smaller mistakes chipping off another 5-10 marks or so....

the other papers were not quite as bad, but there were still some shaky bits in maths n bio, both paper 2. n pengajian am 2 has always been, well, unpredictable at best. so i guess it all comes down to luck now....the type of examiners who mark my papers will determine my fate. pity i dun hv a god to pray to...heheh...

btw, i seem to be having trouble putting my thoughts to words....izit becuz i havent been blogging for a long time or my brains hv already left on their own private holiday?

anyway, a brief account of wat i've been up to the last few days. on tuesday, i went home after the final paper, feeling a very surprising lack of jubilance at the end of the exams. mebbe it was becuz i knew i din do well enuf...or mebbe cuz i had been sick the day before n was still feeling slightly queasy (imagine tossing sleeplessly in bed from 3am to 5am on the eve of ur final paper...sounds bad right? well, dat happened..to me).

so upon reaching home i installed dota n the spent the morning n afternoon in front of the comp. lydia came over around noon to borrow my comp which resulted in me leaving a game >( after dinner, went to evo in onestop wif kst, yst, sam, szeming n..wonder of wonders...yong shen...played from 8-11sumting, then went home n on9-ed a bit more...n there endeth my post-stpm celebration...boring eh?

the next day, wed, i took my car over to the shop to hv its remote control system fixed. turned out to be a flat battery in my remote nia. the rest of the day..played dota n dungeon keeper 2, a relly old game...but boy it was fun. i mean, i like being the bad guy n such :P

thurs: nothing eventful in the morning n afternoon; at night, danny came over to plan our class' performance for the graduation dinner next wed. we're gonna do a singing thing...cobble a few songs together liddat.

fri: went to sch where my class had a meeting to discuss the performance. then went to this new cybercafe in farlim where they had better comps n a better environment (than evo) n at a lower price (RM1.50/hr) too! they even got quake 4! 10 of us went...juz enuf to fill up both teams of 5 in dota. after 2 games - both of which my side lost :( - we played a 'few' rounds of quake 4. man, 10 ppl in a deathmatch is simply crazy. some of the maps were so small everyone was shooting at someone more than half the time...n dying half the other. i recognised two of the maps...one was a remake of a quake 2 classic, another was the final level in quake 3. later, went wif chin kok to ms tan (suat hui)'s hse where we dismantled her electronic organ, then i decided that i din need to take it home after all so we left it there. then went home n wasted the rest of the day as usual.

sat: danny came over in the morning to practice since the 2 of us r gonna b playing the instruments for the class performance next wed. then went over to the pc depot in e-gate near tesco cuz there was an offer on the pendrives there....RM29.90 for a 256mb....unfortunately, those units were sold out so i went home empty handed. i did manage to check out the prices for multi media cards for my hp tho..gonna compare them at the pc fair next week.

well...that concludes my once-in-a-blue-moon blog for now...

7 comments:

Lin Whatever! said...

BUT...don't forget if u get straight A's...hehehe...u owe me a meal! =D

EA Cheng said...

Got any Marshall Plan for me?

amphibian sp. said...

at least u practise wat u preach... listing down stuffs- so no worries there, u've got them down but thing is whether got motivation to do it or not nia, isn't it..?

chin kimg said...

"i hated studying for stpm but once its all over, it feels like i've lost 'direction'"
i dont hate studying for it as bad as you
but i agree with u on the losing direction part

"its not a matter of having nothing to do, but wanting to do so many stuff that i dunno where to start."
this is GENG!
this is like the first time i agree with what u say

i'm like O_o after reading your blog
think u've wrote what most people feel, people like us la

raptor_ravenlord said...

ck(1): its not like i dun hv motivation...i juz duno where to begin...i think my logistics circuits hv fried during d final days of stpm....

ck(2): most ppl seem 2 b happily doing wat they want tho, i feel like i'm the only one who's doing stuff dat i dun relly find fulfilling or enjoyable...like playing games...

i think i must be going mad! does this blog post make any sense to anyone who's reading it??

amphibian sp. said...

*a pat on ur back* well, every1 can empathise with u, u'll find the 'light' soon..! ;)

raptor_ravenlord said...

find the light?? i dun wan to die so soon!!